Target...

Today is difficult to sum up. It was a, how should I put it... surprise...

I had a person, who I thought was a Friend, Rage out on me. The straw must have lander on her back, and she blew. It was a case of one of those things were I was in the wrong place at the wrong time I think. Nope, I know I didn't deserve it.

It was in the middle of class. I raised a hand to ask a question, and BAM!!! She blew. She stood up and let it all out. I let her finish with her spasm, Asked if she was done, and then said, "I am total shocked you feel that way and I truly am disappointed in you and you behavior". She blew off and attacked some more, and I responded, "I am sorry you feel that way". She then stormed out of class. I know I'm being vague, and I will try to be a little more clear... it just hard because her, episode was so random and made no sense and had no relevance.... it was like WTF!!!

She just exploded and went off about all the things she hates about me, the annoyances I have, I am too smart. Nerdy and then made/did a little childhood mimic of a scenario I did earlier in the day with a partner. F#$K it was so viscous and hateful. She snapped. So weird, because we were friends before the course started. I realize there is an age difference too. She is eight years younger than me. But Still.... That was so uncalled for...
I have never made anyone feel less of themselves or have insulted them...
.... TARGET.... That was it. That was me. Man it hurt, and stings still....
I just don't FRIK'n get it. I help out. I'm nice to everyone. I have been holding study sessions at my house for those wanting it, and I have been helping to tutor others who asked...
Nice thing about today is, everyone in the class stood up for me, or said something encouraging, and were just supportive of me. I feel good and all, but I feel worse because the girl, my friend who exploded, did it out of character... What is happening in her life that I haven't picked up on for her to SNAP.... I want to help her...

So, I need everyone's, Yes you the reader, to give me some input. I picked up a card for her. On the Front it says;

"Just the way you are, regardless of what you do or don't do,
past, present, and future, no matter where you go, even on your
not-so-good days... whatever you choose, with all your unique qualities,
simply because you're you... You Are Beautiful"

The card is blank on the inside. I wrote the following... Please comment and tell me if I did the right thing or if I'm a jerk, or ass or whatever... I just don't want to lose a Friend.




Dear __________

I just want to take this time, and let you know I care and I want to know if you are doing okay? I apologize if I have done anything that may have insulted or offended you. I have nothing but the utmost respect for you. I realize for you to lose your composure, lash out, verbally abuse , and then insult my intelligence.... you must be going through hard, and difficult times. I do not cast judgment on you, nor do I blame for your actions. People experience and go through life differently, encountering different obstacles along the way. Life can be unfair and cruel.

I think of you as a friend, but I now am in question if you ever thought the same about me.

I genuinely am a nice person, and a positive guy. I am attentive, eager to learn and intrigued by life and that is the reason I ask so many questions. I am most times "happy-go-lucky", and for good reason. If I were not, I would more than likely have been dead long ago. I am a good and even great friend to those who let me.

Despite what happened I do want us to be friends and build on that foundation.

I really do Care.

Your Friend,

Aaron